You promised yourself that you would do things differently.
You're committed to parenting in a wise and healthy way, yet you're not living up to those expectations. You keep hitting the same walls. You're done with the disappointment.
Attachment focused parenting if designed for you.
If you find that:
Being present with your children brings up pain and sadness.
Although you've tried every parenting tip offered, you're stuck with disconnect and disappointment.