Loss and renewal

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what is loss

you ask

as you look around

searching for

something

or someone

or anyone

what is it?

is it a thing?

you lost

something

you seek

to find

or is it 

a spot

a place

a sensation

a feeling

a crevice

of your heart

of your soul

that yearns 

that seeks

for something

that once was

or for something

that

was tasted

a sliver

a droplet

of something

connection 

a loved one

a safety net

a sense of

belonging

what was your loss?

loss

means 

there once was

something  

that settled you 

that helped you

feel steady

and

only

once it is gone

do you notice

it is not there

anymore

"where is it" you ask

as the loss

dawns upon you 

just like a little child

looking for

her blanket

like the toddler

looking for

his favorite

snuggle spot

like the kid

seeking his

most beloved book

and the teen

frantically searching

for his phone

his connection

his lifeline

to others

and the adult

seeking

only

adults

seek

differently

we do not

cry out loud

we do not

say 

I need to

buy this

or

find that

or

hold that

rather

it is an inner seeking

a seeking

for something deeper

something silent

yet that has

so much

power

power that

churns

the inner working 

of your essence

loss

the losing of 

something

that once was

maybe

the loss

was necessary

to survive

loss of a limb

loss of a relationship

endings

 of

places

a home

a job

a role

a community

a school 

ending college

the end of a life stage

releasing with it

a way of being 

releasing

a grudge

shifting

a character trait

an aspect of self

as a way

of going on

to the next phase

and change

wraps up

the old

to process

and

invite

possibility

to heal

to replenish

inviting temporary

emptiness

for

 subsequent

spaciousness

and trust

that

something new 

will be birthed

something new

different

and often better

for you

will invite itself

you'll hear the knock

and know precisely

when

to open the door

change

healing

loss

and newness

they're all tied 

in sync

with each other

one without the other

would not exist

this is

human life 

sending warm wishes

to the space you're at

in your cycle of life

loss

healing

change

a new beat

to your heart

fresh layers

of  skin

mending 

weaving

breathing

shifting

growing

may it be a beautiful process